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Juggling Fire: 8 True Stories of Struggle for Connection

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Seven days of pure joy, the nation gathered to see and be seen Sages and saints dance until dawn: circles of purity, rings of ecstasy 8 flaming torches streak orange upon an ebony sky The hearts and souls of the gathered multitude are alight, alive, illumined Night flees Though time spirals onward and the circle dance has ceased, the burning torches continue their upward arc We juggle with fire, toil for connection— And silently pray for the night, once again, to flee

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Unconditional Esti Sadeh Rochie brushed the long blonde locks clinging to her shoulders as she admired her new look. “I love it,” she declared. Pouting her lips and spreading her fingers in a peace sign, my daughter posed for a selfie to send her friends. Within seconds the picture was on her social media pages and immediately inspired tens of comments and “likes.” But it was only in the car that she finally turned to me. “What do you think, Ma? Do you like it?” I swallowed the lump in my throat as I appraised my daughter’s half-shaved crown. “You’ll always be beautiful to me.” “You’re just saying that because you’re my mother,” Rochie complained. “Seriously, isn’t it awesome?” She was back on her phone before I could respond. “I need to do it,” she’d told me that morning. “I just can’t look in the mirror every morning and see myself. I can’t stand myself. I need to be someone new.” I understood. Because Chaim and I had made the same decision only days before.

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